1 00:00:18,990 --> 00:00:22,370 SHIN SEIKI 2 00:00:22,790 --> 00:00:29,130 Subtitles in Portuguese, encode and Color Correction: Sephirotic English Subtitles: ADV Films 2D4U QC PT: romaNii 3 00:00:44,370 --> 00:00:47,980 your eyes are not yet aware, 4 00:00:47,980 --> 00:00:51,900 of the painful path they will take. 5 00:01:22,020 --> 00:01:23,100 DIRECTED BY 6 00:01:22,020 --> 00:01:23,350 HIDEAKI 7 00:01:22,020 --> 00:01:23,100 YEAR 8 00:01:23,100 --> 00:01:23,180 YEAR 9 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:32,150 The reason for existence, The raison d'être. 10 00:01:32,190 --> 00:01:33,820 The reason to stay here. 11 00:01:33,860 --> 00:01:35,570 Ikari, Shinji, in your case. 12 00:01:36,780 --> 00:01:38,490 The boy wished to die. 13 00:01:40,280 --> 00:01:41,990 The other boy accepted this wish. 14 00:01:44,040 --> 00:01:45,580 The final Angel has disappeared 15 00:01:48,920 --> 00:01:50,920 Meanwhile, Ikari, Shinji is distressed. 16 00:01:50,920 --> 00:01:52,380 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 17 00:01:54,760 --> 00:01:56,010 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 18 00:01:57,800 --> 00:01:59,050 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 19 00:02:00,090 --> 00:02:01,010 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 20 00:02:03,810 --> 00:02:05,100 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 21 00:02:05,100 --> 00:02:07,770 Because there was no way! 22 00:02:07,770 --> 00:02:09,100 WHY DID YOU KILL HIM? 23 00:02:09,100 --> 00:02:12,110 Because Kaworu-kun was... He was an Angel! 24 00:02:12,110 --> 00:02:13,270 Even though he's also human? 25 00:02:13,270 --> 00:02:16,400 No! He was an Angel, our enemy! 26 00:02:16,440 --> 00:02:17,650 Even though he was also human? 27 00:02:17,650 --> 00:02:20,700 It wasn't! It wasn't! It's wrong! 28 00:02:21,700 --> 00:02:23,790 Even if he was a human, like me? 29 00:02:23,790 --> 00:02:26,290 No! He was an Angel! 30 00:02:26,290 --> 00:02:27,960 Is that why you killed him? 31 00:02:27,960 --> 00:02:31,330 That's right! If I didn't do it we would have died! 32 00:02:31,330 --> 00:02:33,000 They would all have been killed. 33 00:02:33,000 --> 00:02:34,300 Is that why you killed him? 34 00:02:34,300 --> 00:02:36,170 I didn't do it because I wanted to. 35 00:02:36,170 --> 00:02:37,920 But, I had no choice! 36 00:02:37,970 --> 00:02:38,970 That's why you killed him. 37 00:02:39,430 --> 00:02:40,430 Help me. 38 00:02:40,470 --> 00:02:41,470 That's why you killed him 39 00:02:41,470 --> 00:02:42,640 Help me. 40 00:02:42,680 --> 00:02:43,600 That's why you killed him 41 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:44,560 Help me! 42 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:46,140 That's why you killed him 43 00:02:46,140 --> 00:02:47,640 Someone, help me! 44 00:02:47,680 --> 00:02:48,810 That's why you killed him 45 00:02:48,560 --> 00:02:51,810 I'm begging! Someone help me!! 46 00:02:56,280 --> 00:03:00,530 That's right, the one who should have survived was Kaworu-kun and not me. 47 00:03:01,200 --> 00:03:04,370 He was a much better person than me. 48 00:03:04,910 --> 00:03:07,500 Kaworu-kun is the one who should have survived. 49 00:03:07,500 --> 00:03:08,620 You are wrong. 50 00:03:08,620 --> 00:03:11,460 To survive, you just need to have such a desire. 51 00:03:11,870 --> 00:03:13,670 He wished for death. 52 00:03:13,670 --> 00:03:16,920 He abandoned the desire to live by clinging to false hope. 53 00:03:17,760 --> 00:03:19,880 You didn't do anything wrong, Shinji-kun. 54 00:03:19,880 --> 00:03:21,050 Is it really? 55 00:03:21,090 --> 00:03:21,800 Anxiety 56 00:03:21,800 --> 00:03:24,010 Is everything really ok? 57 00:03:24,050 --> 00:03:24,550 Obsessive Anxiety 58 00:03:24,550 --> 00:03:27,720 I don't know. What should I do? 59 00:03:27,720 --> 00:03:29,140 What should I do?! 60 00:03:29,140 --> 00:03:30,180 What do you fear? 61 00:03:30,180 --> 00:03:31,230 Fear? 62 00:03:31,270 --> 00:03:32,150 What do you fear? 63 00:03:32,150 --> 00:03:33,190 Myself? 64 00:03:33,230 --> 00:03:34,110 What do you fear? 65 00:03:34,110 --> 00:03:35,400 Be hated. 66 00:03:35,440 --> 00:03:36,230 What do you fear? 67 00:03:36,230 --> 00:03:36,940 By whom? 68 00:03:36,980 --> 00:03:37,570 What do you fear? 69 00:03:37,280 --> 00:03:38,570 Who is it?! 70 00:03:38,280 --> 00:03:38,780 What do you fear? 71 00:03:38,570 --> 00:03:41,820 For my father! 72 00:03:41,820 --> 00:03:44,490 My father abandoned me! He hated me! 73 00:03:45,740 --> 00:03:47,830 What should I do if I'm hated? 74 00:03:47,830 --> 00:03:49,580 What should I do?! 75 00:03:59,510 --> 00:04:01,260 Where am I? 76 00:04:02,510 --> 00:04:04,430 Where should I go? 77 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:07,850 I don't see anything. I don't understand anything. 78 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:11,770 Misato-san? 79 00:04:12,640 --> 00:04:14,150 Misato-san! 80 00:04:14,650 --> 00:04:17,650 Hey, where did you go, Misato-san? 81 00:04:18,480 --> 00:04:22,030 Hey, from now on where should I go? 82 00:04:22,820 --> 00:04:26,160 Misato-san! Asuka! Ayanami! 83 00:04:26,160 --> 00:04:28,580 Touji! Kensuke! Ritsuko-san! 84 00:04:28,580 --> 00:04:29,990 Kaji-san! 85 00:04:29,990 --> 00:04:31,370 Father! 86 00:04:31,830 --> 00:04:33,330 Mom... 87 00:04:33,660 --> 00:04:35,460 Someone tell me... 88 00:04:35,830 --> 00:04:38,170 What should I do, tell me! 89 00:04:40,590 --> 00:04:42,300 Evangelion, Unit 01. 90 00:04:45,050 --> 00:04:48,430 In the end, there is no way, I must pilot it. 91 00:04:48,970 --> 00:04:51,350 Even killing people I like. 92 00:04:51,350 --> 00:04:54,100 It means I should listen to my father and everyone, 93 00:04:54,100 --> 00:04:56,020 and get back into this thing to fight?! 94 00:04:56,020 --> 00:04:57,440 Mother! 95 00:04:57,440 --> 00:04:59,650 Say something! Reply! 96 00:04:59,690 --> 00:05:00,900 Why do you fly the Eva? 97 00:05:02,360 --> 00:05:04,030 Because people tell me to drive. 98 00:05:04,150 --> 00:05:05,400 Is that why you fly the Eva? 99 00:05:05,530 --> 00:05:09,660 Everyone asks... If it's for others, then isn't that okay? 100 00:05:09,700 --> 00:05:11,740 Do you fly the Eva for the good of others? 101 00:05:11,740 --> 00:05:14,580 That's right! Isn't that a good thing? 102 00:05:14,580 --> 00:05:16,750 Isn't that a very good thing?! 103 00:05:16,750 --> 00:05:20,800 If I do this, everyone praises me! They value me! 104 00:05:20,800 --> 00:05:22,460 That's a lie. 105 00:05:22,460 --> 00:05:24,260 Are you an idiot?! 106 00:05:24,260 --> 00:05:26,550 In the end, it's for YOU, isn't it? 107 00:05:27,510 --> 00:05:30,680 There you go creating a lame excuse like that. 108 00:05:31,220 --> 00:05:32,810 And even? 109 00:05:32,810 --> 00:05:36,440 Thinking that you are doing something for the good of others, 110 00:05:36,440 --> 00:05:38,860 It's an easy way to live life. 111 00:05:38,860 --> 00:05:40,310 Is it really? 112 00:05:40,610 --> 00:05:43,650 In other words, you're lonely, Shinji. 113 00:05:43,650 --> 00:05:45,190 Is it really? 114 00:05:45,190 --> 00:05:47,240 This way, it's just a dependency, 115 00:05:47,240 --> 00:05:49,740 a mere symbiotic relationship! 116 00:05:49,740 --> 00:05:51,580 Maybe that's right... 117 00:05:51,580 --> 00:05:56,160 You just want people to appreciate you. 118 00:05:56,500 --> 00:05:58,460 Maybe that's right. 119 00:05:58,460 --> 00:06:03,380 You are just waiting for someone to deliver happiness to you! 120 00:06:03,380 --> 00:06:05,130 A fake happiness! 121 00:06:05,460 --> 00:06:07,550 You work the same way, don't you? 122 00:06:08,260 --> 00:06:09,340 The Second Character... 123 00:06:09,390 --> 00:06:11,680 Soryu, Asuka Langley, In your case 124 00:06:17,020 --> 00:06:19,940 As always, I'm piloting the Eva. 125 00:06:19,940 --> 00:06:21,690 I'm being forced. 126 00:06:22,150 --> 00:06:25,480 Anyway, he doesn't want to move! This rubbish... 127 00:06:26,190 --> 00:06:30,110 No... I'm the trash, aren't I? 128 00:06:30,620 --> 00:06:34,910 They don't need me! Nobody needs me! 129 00:06:35,750 --> 00:06:39,870 Nobody needs a pilot who can't fly their own Eva! 130 00:06:40,630 --> 00:06:43,380 You are trying to feel needed by others. 131 00:06:43,380 --> 00:06:44,170 Shut up! 132 00:06:44,210 --> 00:06:45,090 Separation anxiety 133 00:06:45,670 --> 00:06:47,630 You fear being alone, don't you? 134 00:06:47,670 --> 00:06:48,340 Separation anxiety 135 00:06:48,800 --> 00:06:52,300 Being erased along with others is what you fear, isn't it? 136 00:06:52,350 --> 00:06:52,850 Separation anxiety 137 00:06:53,100 --> 00:06:55,180 That's why you pilot the Eva! 138 00:06:55,220 --> 00:06:55,720 Attachment Theory 139 00:06:55,720 --> 00:06:58,810 Shut up! 140 00:06:56,600 --> 00:06:57,350 Attachment Theory 141 00:06:58,810 --> 00:07:01,940 I don't want to hear that from you who look like a doll! 142 00:07:01,980 --> 00:07:03,020 The Third Character... 143 00:07:03,060 --> 00:07:04,610 Ayanami, Rei, in your case 144 00:07:05,190 --> 00:07:06,780 Who am I? 145 00:07:06,780 --> 00:07:08,490 Ayanami, King. 146 00:07:08,490 --> 00:07:10,070 Who are you? 147 00:07:10,110 --> 00:07:11,570 Ayanami, King 148 00:07:11,950 --> 00:07:14,080 Are you Ayanami too, Rei? 149 00:07:14,080 --> 00:07:17,540 Yes, the thing that is called Ayanami, Rei. 150 00:07:17,540 --> 00:07:20,460 These are all things that are called Ayanami, Rei. 151 00:07:20,960 --> 00:07:22,920 Why are you all me? 152 00:07:23,580 --> 00:07:27,840 Why do everyone else call us Ayanami, Rei. 153 00:07:27,840 --> 00:07:31,840 Why do you have a false body and soul? 154 00:07:32,130 --> 00:07:35,350 They are not fake. I am myself. 155 00:07:35,890 --> 00:07:38,850 No. You are a false soul, 156 00:07:38,850 --> 00:07:42,520 a human created by a man named Ikari, Gendou. 157 00:07:44,230 --> 00:07:47,610 You are a fake object pretending to be a real human. 158 00:07:48,030 --> 00:07:50,820 See, inside you there is a dark heart 159 00:07:50,820 --> 00:07:54,530 who can't see or understand anything, right? 160 00:07:55,160 --> 00:07:57,950 That's where your true self is. 161 00:07:57,950 --> 00:07:59,870 I am me. 162 00:07:59,870 --> 00:08:01,880 I have become the me I am now, 163 00:08:01,990 --> 00:08:05,290 from the connections between self and others. 164 00:08:06,170 --> 00:08:11,050 From relationships with others, my current form was formed. 165 00:08:11,050 --> 00:08:16,180 Relationships with other people and the flow of time changed the shape of my heart. 166 00:08:16,220 --> 00:08:17,430 "Those... Are those ties?" 167 00:08:17,640 --> 00:08:22,770 Yes, all of this is what formed my current self, the entity called Ayanami, Rei. 168 00:08:23,390 --> 00:08:25,440 And it will continue to form me from now on. 169 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:26,770 "That's ties" 170 00:08:27,110 --> 00:08:30,030 But your true self is elsewhere. 171 00:08:30,990 --> 00:08:32,990 You just don't know it. 172 00:08:34,030 --> 00:08:35,660 As you don't want to see, 173 00:08:35,660 --> 00:08:37,700 you avoid without knowing it. 174 00:08:37,740 --> 00:08:38,870 "I'm afraid" 175 00:08:38,870 --> 00:08:41,910 Because you can find something that doesn't have a human form. 176 00:08:42,620 --> 00:08:45,880 Because my old self can disappear. 177 00:08:46,420 --> 00:08:47,590 "I'm afraid" 178 00:08:47,590 --> 00:08:50,380 You are afraid of disappearing. 179 00:08:50,920 --> 00:08:54,880 You are afraid of disappearing from everyone's hearts. 180 00:08:54,880 --> 00:08:56,430 Fear? 181 00:08:56,430 --> 00:08:57,720 I don't understand. 182 00:08:57,720 --> 00:09:00,390 Your own world will disappear. 183 00:09:00,430 --> 00:09:01,520 "It's scary, isn't it?" 184 00:09:01,520 --> 00:09:03,390 You will cease to exist. 185 00:09:03,430 --> 00:09:04,520 "It's scary, isn't it?" 186 00:09:05,900 --> 00:09:08,060 No, I would be happy. 187 00:09:08,610 --> 00:09:10,820 Because I want to die. 188 00:09:10,820 --> 00:09:12,650 What I desire is despair. 189 00:09:12,650 --> 00:09:14,280 I want to go back to nothing. 190 00:09:14,280 --> 00:09:15,780 But I can't. 191 00:09:15,780 --> 00:09:17,700 I cannot return to nothing. 192 00:09:17,700 --> 00:09:19,450 He won't let me return. 193 00:09:20,200 --> 00:09:22,120 He still won't allow me to return to nothingness. 194 00:09:22,580 --> 00:09:25,120 I'm here because he still needs me. 195 00:09:25,500 --> 00:09:27,290 But it's the end. 196 00:09:27,290 --> 00:09:29,500 I will become unnecessary. 197 00:09:29,500 --> 00:09:31,880 He will abandon me. 198 00:09:32,590 --> 00:09:35,340 I thought I wished for this day, 199 00:09:36,130 --> 00:09:37,050 But now... 200 00:09:37,590 --> 00:09:38,510 I'm scared. 201 00:09:42,430 --> 00:09:44,140 So let's go. 202 00:09:44,430 --> 00:09:49,110 You exist for this day, King. 203 00:09:49,650 --> 00:09:50,360 Yes. 204 00:09:50,400 --> 00:09:51,440 And then... 205 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:53,440 The Instrumentality of Humanity Begins. 206 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:55,860 Episode25 The End of the World 207 00:09:56,650 --> 00:09:58,740 Do you love me? 208 00:09:58,780 --> 00:09:59,990 Again, Ikari, Shinji 209 00:10:01,780 --> 00:10:03,990 What is this feeling? 210 00:10:04,620 --> 00:10:07,120 I've felt that again. 211 00:10:07,120 --> 00:10:10,170 The feeling that the shape of my body disappears. 212 00:10:11,090 --> 00:10:12,880 It's delicious. 213 00:10:13,710 --> 00:10:16,670 I feel like my body is growing and spreading... 214 00:10:17,130 --> 00:10:19,800 Everywhere... 215 00:10:20,180 --> 00:10:21,800 This was the beginning of the complementation human through Instrumentality 216 00:10:21,850 --> 00:10:23,060 What people lack 217 00:10:23,100 --> 00:10:24,270 The emptiness in their hearts 218 00:10:24,310 --> 00:10:25,600 To fill the void in hearts, 219 00:10:25,640 --> 00:10:27,600 The Instrumentality of hearts and souls begins. 220 00:10:27,640 --> 00:10:28,850 Returning everything to nothing. 221 00:10:28,890 --> 00:10:31,020 The Instrumentality of people began. 222 00:10:32,190 --> 00:10:35,190 Wrong, it is not a return to nothing. 223 00:10:35,190 --> 00:10:38,030 It is a return of everything to the very beginning. 224 00:10:38,030 --> 00:10:41,490 We are just returning to the mother of this world who was lost. 225 00:10:41,490 --> 00:10:45,330 All hearts will unite achieving eternal peace. 226 00:10:45,700 --> 00:10:48,210 Nothing beyond that. 227 00:10:48,210 --> 00:10:49,750 Is this the Human Instrumentality Project? 228 00:10:49,750 --> 00:10:50,880 That's right. 229 00:10:50,880 --> 00:10:55,420 We all have some emptiness in our hearts. 230 00:10:55,550 --> 00:10:56,760 This is what creates yearning in our hearts. 231 00:10:56,800 --> 00:10:58,380 This is what creates fear and anxiety in our hearts. 232 00:10:58,920 --> 00:11:01,640 Every person fears this darkness in their heart, 233 00:11:01,640 --> 00:11:05,350 and lives trying to escape it, denying it. 234 00:11:05,350 --> 00:11:08,680 Even if it never disappears as long as we are human. 235 00:11:08,680 --> 00:11:11,400 And so you will merge all the people together 236 00:11:11,400 --> 00:11:13,540 to compensate for this emptiness?! 237 00:11:13,540 --> 00:11:16,760 And you will do this to everyone else?! What gives you the right?! 238 00:11:16,760 --> 00:11:19,240 This is nothing more than collusion! 239 00:11:19,240 --> 00:11:21,660 But that's exactly what you wanted. 240 00:11:23,910 --> 00:11:25,740 Where am I? 241 00:11:25,780 --> 00:11:27,240 Katsuragi, Misato in her case 242 00:11:27,830 --> 00:11:31,670 That's my heart that exists inside Misato-san's heart. 243 00:11:31,670 --> 00:11:35,880 At the same time, that's my heart that exists inside Shinji-kun, isn't it? 244 00:11:36,210 --> 00:11:40,590 In order for me to find myself, I need to relate to different people. 245 00:11:41,090 --> 00:11:43,890 I have to look inside myself. 246 00:11:43,890 --> 00:11:46,640 I have to look at Misato-san inside me. 247 00:11:47,470 --> 00:11:49,520 Misato-san, what do you want? 248 00:11:49,560 --> 00:11:50,730 "Do you want to be a good girl?" 249 00:11:50,730 --> 00:11:53,150 I have to be a good girl. 250 00:11:53,190 --> 00:11:54,150 "Why?" 251 00:11:54,150 --> 00:11:55,730 Because I don't have a daddy. 252 00:11:55,730 --> 00:11:59,400 Since I have to help my mother, I have to be a good girl. 253 00:11:59,400 --> 00:12:01,950 But I don't want to be like mom. 254 00:12:01,950 --> 00:12:05,490 When daddy isn't home, mommy just cries. 255 00:12:05,490 --> 00:12:08,080 I shouldn't cry. I must not be spoiled. 256 00:12:08,290 --> 00:12:11,370 So I have to be a good girl. 257 00:12:11,370 --> 00:12:14,630 So I'm going to do my best to make sure Daddy doesn't hate me. 258 00:12:14,630 --> 00:12:16,790 But I hate my father. 259 00:12:16,790 --> 00:12:18,920 That's why I hate being good. 260 00:12:18,920 --> 00:12:20,800 I hate! 261 00:12:20,800 --> 00:12:22,420 I am tired. 262 00:12:22,420 --> 00:12:24,930 Tired of keeping myself pure... 263 00:12:24,930 --> 00:12:27,760 To maintain this premise to remain impeccable. 264 00:12:27,760 --> 00:12:29,810 I'm already tired. 265 00:12:30,140 --> 00:12:32,430 I want to get dirty. 266 00:12:32,430 --> 00:12:35,270 I wanted to see what it would be like getting dirty. 267 00:12:35,270 --> 00:12:37,690 That's why you wanted to be hugged by him? 268 00:12:37,690 --> 00:12:39,570 No! I loved him! 269 00:12:40,280 --> 00:12:41,530 That's why I slept with him. 270 00:12:41,940 --> 00:12:44,030 Did you really love him? 271 00:12:44,030 --> 00:12:45,360 Yes, I loved it. 272 00:12:45,360 --> 00:12:47,910 He accepted me as I was. 273 00:12:47,950 --> 00:12:48,740 "True?" 274 00:12:48,990 --> 00:12:50,240 He was kind! 275 00:13:02,670 --> 00:13:06,590 No! Stop! Don't show this to Shinji-kun! 276 00:13:07,930 --> 00:13:10,560 After everything that happened, there's no need to be ashamed. 277 00:13:10,560 --> 00:13:12,390 I am embarrassed! 278 00:13:12,390 --> 00:13:14,100 Why are you ashamed? 279 00:13:14,100 --> 00:13:17,600 You weren't ashamed, in fact, you liked it 280 00:13:17,600 --> 00:13:19,770 to show this side of her to the man she loved. 281 00:13:19,770 --> 00:13:21,190 No! Stop! 282 00:13:22,780 --> 00:13:26,990 You actually must be happy to show this to Shinji-kun. 283 00:13:26,990 --> 00:13:29,530 Lie! No, it's not true! 284 00:13:29,530 --> 00:13:30,990 Is it really? 285 00:13:30,990 --> 00:13:33,790 Could it be that you actually didn't wish you had shown this to your father? 286 00:13:33,790 --> 00:13:35,160 It's not that! 287 00:13:35,160 --> 00:13:38,880 You looked for peace on Kaji-kun's face as he slept. 288 00:13:38,880 --> 00:13:39,840 It's not that! 289 00:13:39,840 --> 00:13:43,010 You sought peace in Kaji-kun's comfort. 290 00:13:43,010 --> 00:13:44,380 It's not that! 291 00:13:44,380 --> 00:13:47,890 You tried to find your father in Kaji-kun's arms. 292 00:13:47,890 --> 00:13:48,890 Not true! 293 00:13:51,060 --> 00:13:52,810 That was it. 294 00:13:52,810 --> 00:13:57,230 That time, I met my father at Kaji-kun. 295 00:13:57,770 --> 00:14:00,270 That's why I ran away from him. 296 00:14:01,610 --> 00:14:03,320 I was scared. 297 00:14:03,320 --> 00:14:05,490 He was just like my father. 298 00:14:05,990 --> 00:14:08,660 But actually it was because I was happy. 299 00:14:08,660 --> 00:14:10,780 That was a nice feeling. 300 00:14:10,780 --> 00:14:13,830 It was a great joy for a change. 301 00:14:13,830 --> 00:14:15,950 That's why I hated it. 302 00:14:15,950 --> 00:14:18,040 That's why I finished. 303 00:14:18,040 --> 00:14:21,840 Well, I guess that means there's no reason to start a love, 304 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:24,000 but to finish it, no? 305 00:14:25,130 --> 00:14:27,380 You're so kind, Kaji-kun. 306 00:14:28,130 --> 00:14:31,100 Use all that kindness... please. 307 00:14:32,720 --> 00:14:34,520 And deflower me. 308 00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:39,020 Just because you hate yourself now, 309 00:14:39,020 --> 00:14:41,060 It doesn't mean you should get hurt. 310 00:14:41,060 --> 00:14:46,240 Punishing yourself will just be a trick to try to make you feel better. 311 00:14:46,440 --> 00:14:48,490 It's better to stop this. 312 00:14:48,490 --> 00:14:52,280 And now you're going to say I should take care of myself? 313 00:14:52,280 --> 00:14:54,120 All men are like that. 314 00:14:54,120 --> 00:14:58,370 They turn to their world and their work, 315 00:14:58,370 --> 00:15:00,370 and leave me behind. 316 00:15:01,420 --> 00:15:03,670 Just like my father. 317 00:15:04,090 --> 00:15:07,210 Always trying to escape the cruelty of reality. 318 00:15:07,210 --> 00:15:09,170 Cruel reality? 319 00:15:09,170 --> 00:15:10,930 It's me, isn't it? 320 00:15:10,930 --> 00:15:14,640 That's right, it's me. It was to be expected. 321 00:15:16,220 --> 00:15:18,230 Stop, Misato-san! 322 00:15:18,930 --> 00:15:21,440 Sometimes I get desperate! 323 00:15:21,440 --> 00:15:22,440 I hate myself! 324 00:15:22,440 --> 00:15:23,560 Indecent, 325 00:15:23,560 --> 00:15:24,570 you are dirty. 326 00:15:24,900 --> 00:15:26,020 How pathetic. 327 00:15:26,020 --> 00:15:28,240 Lascivious! Repulsive! 328 00:15:28,240 --> 00:15:31,070 What do you call an adult relationship? I'm going to vomit! 329 00:15:31,410 --> 00:15:35,370 Congratulations on your promotion, Major Katsuragi. 330 00:15:35,370 --> 00:15:36,950 This person who is recognized, 331 00:15:36,950 --> 00:15:39,620 it is actually the fake made by me to be accepted. 332 00:15:39,620 --> 00:15:41,290 It's not really me. 333 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:45,090 My self is always crying. 334 00:15:45,090 --> 00:15:47,710 No, I'm happy. 335 00:15:47,750 --> 00:15:48,670 "Am I happy?" 336 00:15:48,880 --> 00:15:50,880 I'm happy. 337 00:15:50,880 --> 00:15:51,840 "Am I happy?" 338 00:15:51,840 --> 00:15:53,680 I'm happy! 339 00:15:53,720 --> 00:15:54,680 "Am I happy?" 340 00:15:54,850 --> 00:15:57,430 No! This is not happiness! 341 00:15:57,470 --> 00:15:58,430 "What is happiness?" 342 00:15:58,430 --> 00:16:01,390 That's not the real me! 343 00:16:01,390 --> 00:16:03,650 This is just me pretending! 344 00:16:03,650 --> 00:16:06,690 If this is not the case, will we not be able to live? 345 00:16:07,230 --> 00:16:09,360 If you're not with someone, you're afraid. 346 00:16:09,360 --> 00:16:10,780 You become insecure. 347 00:16:10,780 --> 00:16:12,950 If there is no one sleeping next to you. 348 00:16:12,950 --> 00:16:15,160 Are you afraid of sleeping alone? 349 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:17,990 Does that mean you really feel lonely sleeping alone? 350 00:16:17,990 --> 00:16:20,410 Your heart cannot tolerate the loss. 351 00:16:21,040 --> 00:16:22,960 So anyone would do, right? 352 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:24,500 Not true! 353 00:16:24,500 --> 00:16:28,170 Yes, you just want to immerse yourself in pure pleasure. 354 00:16:28,170 --> 00:16:31,470 You just want to soothe your sad heart with simple escapism. 355 00:16:31,470 --> 00:16:34,430 And you're just using men for that. 356 00:16:34,430 --> 00:16:36,600 No, it's not that, it's not! 357 00:16:38,680 --> 00:16:40,310 What does she really want? 358 00:16:40,350 --> 00:16:41,390 CASE 2 359 00:16:41,850 --> 00:16:43,810 Where am I? 360 00:16:44,850 --> 00:16:47,690 This is my heart that exists inside Asuka. 361 00:16:47,690 --> 00:16:51,820 That means my heart also exists inside Shinji, doesn't it? 362 00:16:52,440 --> 00:16:53,900 Soryu, Asuka Langley, in your case 363 00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:56,200 Asuka, what do you want? 364 00:16:57,160 --> 00:16:59,410 I can live alone! 365 00:16:59,410 --> 00:17:02,540 I don't need dad or mom! I can live alone. 366 00:17:02,540 --> 00:17:04,620 I won't cry anymore! 367 00:17:06,170 --> 00:17:08,210 But I'm still crying. 368 00:17:08,590 --> 00:17:10,420 Why am I crying? 369 00:17:12,090 --> 00:17:14,590 I don't get along with her. 370 00:17:14,590 --> 00:17:17,640 Even though you're a doctor? You're not like that. 371 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:19,430 Doctors are people too. 372 00:17:19,430 --> 00:17:21,220 I've said this before. 373 00:17:21,520 --> 00:17:25,520 But a grown woman like you not being able to handle a child... 374 00:17:25,520 --> 00:17:27,270 She is strangely adultized, 375 00:17:27,270 --> 00:17:30,400 I feel like she's watching me. Always rejects me. 376 00:17:30,400 --> 00:17:32,570 Sometimes I even get scared. 377 00:17:32,570 --> 00:17:35,240 Have you ever had that feeling with her? 378 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:36,700 No. 379 00:17:36,700 --> 00:17:40,030 Either way, you're Asuka's mother now. 380 00:17:40,030 --> 00:17:43,870 But before that I am your wife. 381 00:17:43,870 --> 00:17:45,080 Isn't it the same thing? 382 00:17:45,080 --> 00:17:48,040 Yes, from society's point of view, it really is. 383 00:17:48,580 --> 00:17:51,840 But you can never stop being her father... 384 00:17:51,840 --> 00:17:55,630 ...I can stop being her mother whenever I want. 385 00:17:55,630 --> 00:17:57,340 Well, it is. 386 00:17:57,340 --> 00:18:00,390 No, stop, mommy! Don't stop being my mother! 387 00:18:00,390 --> 00:18:03,180 I'll be good for you to like me! 388 00:18:03,180 --> 00:18:05,390 So, don't stop being my mother! 389 00:18:05,390 --> 00:18:07,390 So look at me! 390 00:18:07,390 --> 00:18:08,650 Stop, Mom! 391 00:18:08,650 --> 00:18:10,650 Don't kill me! 392 00:18:11,110 --> 00:18:15,690 Your daddy hates me now, he doesn't want me anymore. 393 00:18:16,150 --> 00:18:19,320 No, from the beginning he never loved me. 394 00:18:19,620 --> 00:18:22,530 From the beginning he never needed me, that's for sure. 395 00:18:22,830 --> 00:18:28,040 Then die together with your mother. Daddy doesn't need us anymore! 396 00:18:28,040 --> 00:18:31,000 Am I a nuisance? Am I not wanted? 397 00:18:31,340 --> 00:18:33,670 Let's die together! 398 00:18:33,670 --> 00:18:37,170 No! I'm not mommy's doll! 399 00:18:37,170 --> 00:18:39,720 I think alone, I can live alone! 400 00:18:41,850 --> 00:18:45,220 At that time, my mother was hanging from the ceiling. 401 00:18:46,220 --> 00:18:49,100 His face had a very happy expression. 402 00:18:49,650 --> 00:18:53,480 But that expression was repulsive. 403 00:18:54,070 --> 00:18:55,780 I don't want to die. 404 00:18:55,780 --> 00:18:58,150 I don't want my self to disappear. 405 00:18:58,150 --> 00:18:59,780 I hate men. 406 00:18:59,780 --> 00:19:01,870 I hate mom and dad too! 407 00:19:02,200 --> 00:19:03,990 I hate everyone! 408 00:19:03,990 --> 00:19:06,830 Nobody protects me! 409 00:19:06,830 --> 00:19:08,870 Nobody stays by my side! 410 00:19:08,910 --> 00:19:10,370 What does she want? 411 00:19:11,120 --> 00:19:13,500 That's why I'm going to live alone! 412 00:19:13,500 --> 00:19:16,050 But I don't want that! It's very hard! 413 00:19:16,740 --> 00:19:18,030 I don't want to be alone! 414 00:19:18,360 --> 00:19:19,910 I don't want to be alone! 415 00:19:20,330 --> 00:19:22,640 I don't want to be alone! 416 00:19:25,180 --> 00:19:27,020 Don't abandon me 417 00:19:27,020 --> 00:19:28,480 Don't throw me away. 418 00:19:28,480 --> 00:19:30,190 Don't kill me. 419 00:19:32,650 --> 00:19:33,860 What is that? 420 00:19:36,070 --> 00:19:38,440 That's your father's job... 421 00:19:38,440 --> 00:19:40,400 ...the Human Instrumentality Project. 422 00:19:40,400 --> 00:19:41,410 That? 423 00:19:41,410 --> 00:19:43,240 It's part of him, apparently. 424 00:19:43,240 --> 00:19:46,490 The truth is not understood by us. 425 00:19:46,490 --> 00:19:51,160 Only what we can feel is our truth. 426 00:19:51,580 --> 00:19:53,250 That inside you. 427 00:19:53,540 --> 00:19:57,800 And the memories of these things become true for you. 428 00:19:58,170 --> 00:20:01,340 There are also some truths that change over time. 429 00:20:01,340 --> 00:20:05,300 That's the truth. The result of all memories, that? 430 00:20:05,300 --> 00:20:08,310 Of all realities, this is one of the truths. 431 00:20:08,680 --> 00:20:10,810 This is the result you wanted. 432 00:20:11,350 --> 00:20:13,060 Did I wish? 433 00:20:13,060 --> 00:20:17,360 Yes, annihilation, a world where no one can be saved. 434 00:20:17,360 --> 00:20:21,400 No! It's just that no one saved me... me. 435 00:20:21,900 --> 00:20:23,820 Nobody can save him. 436 00:20:23,820 --> 00:20:26,580 This is what you wished for. 437 00:20:26,580 --> 00:20:29,950 Destruction, death. A return to nothing. 438 00:20:29,950 --> 00:20:32,160 You yourself wished for all this. 439 00:20:32,160 --> 00:20:34,080 This is the reality. 440 00:20:34,080 --> 00:20:35,920 What is reality? 441 00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:37,880 Your world. 442 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:40,460 Time, spaces, people with whom you coexisted. 443 00:20:40,460 --> 00:20:42,090 That's your own world. 444 00:20:42,470 --> 00:20:47,350 A world that you decide how you interpret and accept. 445 00:20:47,350 --> 00:20:50,680 Right now, this is the world of only what you have been given. 446 00:20:50,720 --> 00:20:51,850 This is the reality 447 00:20:52,270 --> 00:20:54,600 This is your world, regardless of what you do. 448 00:20:55,100 --> 00:20:58,110 Is it a world where everything is already determined?! 449 00:20:58,110 --> 00:21:01,320 No, it's up to you to decide the world. 450 00:21:01,320 --> 00:21:04,950 It's the world that your mind decided what it would be like. 451 00:21:04,990 --> 00:21:06,110 This is the reality 452 00:21:06,110 --> 00:21:07,950 If you want to live... 453 00:21:07,950 --> 00:21:11,950 If you wish to die... They are all wishes you had. 454 00:21:11,950 --> 00:21:15,040 This dark and poorly finished world... 455 00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:17,290 ...it was something I wished for, is that it? 456 00:21:17,290 --> 00:21:18,420 Yes. 457 00:21:18,420 --> 00:21:22,760 A peaceful, closed and lonely world. It was what you wanted. 458 00:21:22,760 --> 00:21:25,630 To protect your fragile heart. 459 00:21:25,630 --> 00:21:28,260 To protect your pleasures. 460 00:21:28,260 --> 00:21:30,430 That was the only possible outcome. 461 00:21:30,430 --> 00:21:32,890 In this closed and isolated space of yours, 462 00:21:32,890 --> 00:21:35,520 other people cannot live. 463 00:21:35,520 --> 00:21:40,190 But it was you who wished that the entire world within your reach would be closed off. 464 00:21:40,190 --> 00:21:43,860 Everything that displeased you, you excluded, wishing for a lonely world. 465 00:21:43,860 --> 00:21:45,740 That is your heart's desire. 466 00:21:45,740 --> 00:21:49,910 And that led to this little world where he finds some peace of mind. 467 00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:54,870 This is one of the possible conclusions. 468 00:21:54,870 --> 00:21:58,380 His own desire led to this. To this end for the world. 469 00:21:58,420 --> 00:21:59,960 And then the journey through Instrumentality... 470 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:01,630 Will continue. 471 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,670 Fly me to the moon 472 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,670 Take me to the moon 473 00:22:04,880 --> 00:22:10,010 and let me play among the stars 474 00:22:04,880 --> 00:22:10,010 And let me play among the stars 475 00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,640 Let me see what spring is like 476 00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,640 Let me see what spring is like 477 00:22:13,970 --> 00:22:18,020 On Jupiter and Mars 478 00:22:13,970 --> 00:22:18,020 on Jupiter and Mars. 479 00:22:18,060 --> 00:22:21,190 In other words... 480 00:22:18,060 --> 00:22:21,190 In other words... 481 00:22:21,400 --> 00:22:25,240 Hold my hand 482 00:22:21,400 --> 00:22:25,240 Hold my hand 483 00:22:26,240 --> 00:22:29,450 In other words... 484 00:22:26,240 --> 00:22:29,450 In other words... 485 00:22:29,530 --> 00:22:33,990 Darling kiss me 486 00:22:29,530 --> 00:22:33,990 Baby, kiss me. 487 00:22:34,580 --> 00:22:37,460 Fill my heart with song 488 00:22:34,580 --> 00:22:37,460 Fill my heart with song 489 00:22:37,500 --> 00:22:42,380 and let me sing forevermore 490 00:22:37,500 --> 00:22:42,380 and let me sing forever 491 00:22:42,960 --> 00:22:45,840 You are all I long for 492 00:22:42,960 --> 00:22:45,840 You are everything I desire 493 00:22:46,010 --> 00:22:50,180 All I worship and adore 494 00:22:46,010 --> 00:22:50,180 Everything I adore and idolize 495 00:22:50,640 --> 00:22:53,640 In other words... 496 00:22:50,640 --> 00:22:53,640 In other words... 497 00:22:53,640 --> 00:22:58,520 Please be true 498 00:22:53,640 --> 00:22:58,520 Be true 499 00:22:58,770 --> 00:23:01,860 In other words... 500 00:22:58,770 --> 00:23:01,860 In other words... 501 00:23:01,980 --> 00:23:06,570 I Love You! 502 00:23:01,980 --> 00:23:06,570 I love you! 503 00:23:07,070 --> 00:23:07,900 Next Episode 504 00:23:07,900 --> 00:23:11,700 The end is something that always comes after the beginning. 505 00:23:11,700 --> 00:23:14,240 Will our desires lead to destruction? 506 00:23:14,240 --> 00:23:16,870 Is our final hope death itself? 507 00:23:16,870 --> 00:23:20,870 Final episode: "The beast that screamed LOVE/ME in the heart of the world." 508 00:23:18,910 --> 00:23:22,040 Final Episode The beast that screamed LOVE (me) in the heart of the world 509 00:23:18,910 --> 00:23:22,040 The title of the final episode is a quote from a book with a similar title, but in Japanese it is a pun on the word love "AI" which sounds the same as "I" "I" in English.